I am going to be honest, my motivation is at an all time low. I don’t even really know what it is, all I know is that it just doesn’t appear to be around right now.
Maybe it’s because the insomnia seems to be slowly creeping back into my life and so I’m not sleeping very well at the moment. Then there’s the whole just general sluggishness because it’s that time of the month and that has somehow caught me off guard despite falling at around the same time each and every single month. Then there’s the fact that for some reason my mind just won’t shut up and I keep worrying about every single little thing right now. Then there’s the fact that a part of me keeps beating myself up about the fact that I’m being unproductive and just sort hanging around on my sofa wasting hours on YouTube and rewatching things on Netflix.
So maybe I do know what’s wrong. Or maybe I do kind of know the source for the lack of motivation. I don’t know what I’m going to do about it at the moment other than just sort of ride the wave out, although that might be a bad idea because I don’t know how big the wave is. I’m basically just going to let myself feel like this for a bit because it’s more annoying to try and ignore it, and then I’m gonna reassess the situation.
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