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I took a bit of a step back from here unexpectedly because sometimes life gets in the way and you just need to take a step back. I’ve had a bit of a resurgence in my creativity come back to me in the past 48 hours and so I am slowly finding myself finding enjoyment in things that have for the past few weeks ceased to do that for me. And due to that I am back.
Ironically this was the post that I was going to write before I took my unexpected, brief hiatus and I put it off so much that I just didn’t write it at all…until now.
As the title may suggest, I am very good at procrastinating. Almost a bit too good. I don’t even know why I do it so much because I also have quite bad anxiety and so the combination of procrastinating things and having things to do and deadlines and the such is a terrible combo. But it’s a combo that I have always lived with. It’s one of the reasons why I introduced to myself two posting times, 12pm and 9pm, because sometimes I can just tell when I get home from work that I am going to somehow make it to 11 and have nothing to post for the following day and so I am left with the pressure of having to get home from work the following day and write something in about an hour. When the pressure is on, I am quite good at getting things done.
But I honestly don’t even know what I do with my time that means that I can’t just focus on getting the post, or whatever it is that I am doing, done. But I just don’t. For example, I sat down to write this post initially on Saturday afternoon knowing full well what it was going to include and then I sort of switched tabs and before I knew it I was flicking back to it and writing parts of sentences for the rest of the weekend (although technically we are still in the weekend period right now…). I spent most of that time just aimlessly searching for things on the internet and watching The Keepers, Absoultely Fabulous: The Movie, Hasan Minhaj: Homecoming King and Silicon Valley. I also fell into many a YouTube vortex. I am just very good at finding other really pointless things to do even when I know that I should be focusing on the task in hand.
I’m like this at work as well. I live in a world where I know how long things are going to take me and so instead of just getting them out of the way and ticking them off some kind of list I just sort put it off until the last possible moment. It’s not really all that much of a problem, I give myself deadlines and then the pressure of that deadline means that I can get shit done. That is always how it has been.
I have been known to procrastinate reading things about procrastination before. It all gets very Inception. It’s all very ridiculous. And I am very good at it. I can procrastinate almost anything. I procrastinate sleeping, waking up on weekends, cooking my dinner, going to get lunch, peeing. I’m very good at it. Almost pathetically good at it.
I am the Queen of Procrastination. And this post took over 24 hours to write for that very reason…
Parentheses count: 1. See you tomorrow, yes really!
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