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I don’t necessarily know if I have ever made it clear that for a very long period of time I was convinced that I was done with education. It broke me, I just about scraped a 2.1 in my degree, it left me for some reason feeling more helpless than ever even though it was supposed to open up so many new doors. I spent the year following my graduation feeling super depressed and being super unemployed (and apparently unemployable). I then fell into a job which requires next to no use of my actual degree.
So I was left pretty jaded by the whole education system which I had spent nearly 20 years of my life in.
I entertained the idea of doing a Masters degree very briefly during my final year at uni just because I felt so aimless and I thought that it would be the best way to prolong having to enter the real world and stick to my education bubble. But then I remembered that I actually had no idea what the hell I would want to do a Masters in anyway, it’s why I didn’t do a dissertation. I had no real passion or focus that I could dedicate that many words to. And so I let that Masters dream fade into grey.
Until I reached peak levels of apathy earlier this year and somehow managed to have an epiphany simultaneously. I really do not know how that happened, but there you go.
I found myself realising that what I want to do is a Masters…in, surprise, surprise, Shakespeare. Why it took me almost 3 years (at the time, it’s now over 3 years) to come to realisation is beyond me, but there you go. But I came to it eventually. And so I then started researching into ones that I think could actually work for me and I found myself almost getting something close to excited about the prospect of getting back into the education bubble that left me so broken come mid 2014.
I still don’t know 100% if I actually want to do one right now for sure and I know that the applications are opening in the next few weeks for the ones that I want to do and so I really need to figure it out sharpish whether this is the year or not. I also then need to figure out how I’m going to finance it and fit it in with my life.
So it’s still all up in the air a little bit. But I also feel like it might just be the right time for me right now. Give me something to work to and for, even though it wouldn’t start for another year from now, but that’s probably a good thing because it means that I’d have more time to figure it out.
This desire and itching to do a Masters is also the reason why I want to get more organised, because I was terrible at time keeping at uni when doing uni work was (luckily) the only thing that I had to do. Getting an education around work? Currently sounds impossible with my non-existent organisation skills. It sounds impossible even if I did have them. But it also sounds exciting.
And that’s what I really need right now.
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