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I have a complicated relationship with deadlines.
For the most part I work better when I have them in place, but they terrify me. Because they give me an end date for things. But they also motivate me to try and keep to that deadline because I can convince myself that the world is going to end if I don’t abide by it.
You know, do real great things for my anxiety and all that jazz.
This idea of deadlines has come up because I have tried to set one for my reading of War Storm. I spent the whole of May in the Red Queen universe. And I’m not mad at it because I do love the series, but also I spent a whole month with it and I am ready to leave it behind. But War Storm is nearly 700 pages meaning that my usual one book a week pace has been hella thrown off, not helped by the fact that King’s Cage kind of threw my reading pace off because it was so slow and so I’m still trying to find my footing with it again. And I have, but I’m still only averaging at 50 pages a day.
It’s a 600 odd page book.
You can do the maths. I’ve been reading this book for a while. And am only halfway.
So, I set myself a deadline.
To try and finish the book by Wednesday. Which would have been fine if I hadn’t then eliminated my usual hour of reading time on the weekends (because seriously, I am in such a habit of reading on a train that I find it hard to switch on and read anywhere else) which would be an extra 100 pages done. I’m still only halfway through it and so that Wednesday deadline sounds almost impossible to achieve.
So, rationally speaking I do know that it is unlikely that I am going to reach that deadline because I am not anticipating getting that many pages in 3 days. But I am going to try and get as far as possible. And then get it finished by the weekend.
And then finally be done with it and get into some new worlds.
I am also now acutely aware of the fact that I am currently 2 books behind on my reading challenge for the year, and I’m not all that concerned because I’ve got some books that I can get done real quick and that will get it back up but there is also that little bit part of me in the back of my head that I need to not let that get too far away from me or else it might feel like an impossible climb to make it up.
So, yeah, the new deadline is the weekend.. I wanna start a new week with a new book and also put this world behind me. Reading series’ straight through is a rollercoaster. And weirdly exhausting. And I am loving this one don’t get me wrong, but I also need new characters to fall in love with.
Also, I am very aware that the word ‘deadlines’ sounds a bit dramatic when I am actually only talking about finishing a book, but ya know…the alphabet.
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