2018 Goals

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We are now pretty firmly into this year, 2018 and like I did last year I have set myself some goals for the year. Unlike last year where there were 6 quite broad goals that could kind of encompass anything that I wanted it to,  this year they are a tad more specific. They are something that I can actually aspire to and that could maybe be something a little more tangible. They cover an array of things and they are the kind of things that I am hoping to form into habits.  I may or may not do updates on this as the year goes on, I quite liked it last year because it forced me to check in on them and see where I was and whether I was putting any effort into them, so I probably will (and I’ll be better at tracking them over the year).

1) Learn how to fuck with eyeshadow

I am being legit about this. I have kind of gotten better at make up over the past couple of years. I mean I do the same face each and every time but just switch out the lipstick out and my eyeliner never really matches, but I can contour now and am really nailing the whole highlighter thing, but I also don’t trust myself with any kind of eyebrow product that isn’t a gel with a spoolie. So I think that if I learn how to actually do things with eyeshadow then I can actually make it look like I have a different face on whenever I do put make up.

2) Learn how to do a full pull up

Listen I have minimal upper body strength and am also tall as hell. The idea of being able to do a pull up sounds almost unachievable to me, but it is also something that I want to be able to do. I’m not even aiming high. I just want to be able to do one.

3) Be able to a full push up

I can manage this when I am on my knees, but when I am going full push up I can get about half of the way down before my arms feel like they are going to give up and so I push back up to avoid smashing my face onto the floor. I want to change that. I’m aiming up for this one, I want to be able to multiple reps for this.

4) Read 70 books

Okay I know the challenge is officially set at 65, but for some reason, probably because I exceed last year’s one, I want to see if I can push it that little bit further. I already have two other books that I started reading and have carried over to this year… I’m sure I can find another 3 from somewhere.

5) Lift heavier

So for this Lift class of mine (it’s literally called that) the heaviest I have on my barbell is for the squat tracks and it’s 13kg, then for any kind of clean and presses and rows it’s 10kg, biceps and triceps it’s 8kg. All this means that I am classified as an intermediate. And I can just about cope with this at the moment, I think the problem with that one is that I went up in weight and then became really sporadic with when I went which meant that it was harder to get consistent with it and move up with the weights. Which I want to change. I want to be a strong lifter. If I’m meaning really ambitious then I would say seasoned pro, but I’m a realist, so I’m just aiming for strong.

6) Eat more fruit and veg

You know that whole recommended intake of fruit and veg? Yeah I think I get about 2 on an average day, 3-5 when I’m really conscious of it. I want to be more conscious of it at all times until it just becomes a habit and the idea of doing it isn’t even something I think about anymore.

7) Cook More

I used to cook all the time and then my dad changed shifts at work and it went back to him so I pretty much only do it on weekends if I’m feeling inspired enough to do more than just pasta, which is rare because I am so out of the habit of it. But even when I did cook, I pretty much only ever cooked the same 7 dishes just on a rotation and so I want to expand that. And cook more. This is the year that I want to make some tweaks to my diet and cooking is a pretty good way to get that into my control.

8) Finish the damn book

As in writing it. I want a first draft of this thing done by the end of the year. I want to final be able to say that I have finished a novel because I have so many half written ones in my life that have lost their way somewhere in the middle and I want to change that.

9) Write for half an hour a day

This kind of links to the above one, but is also just a general thing. By the end of the year the only writing I did was for this blog and even then I stopped doing that come December, which is fine, it’s still writing, but I want to more creatively. I have a built in hour of my day where I usually read (sometimes I don’t but they are the exception to the rule) on my commute to and from work/gym and I want to carve out a half hour of my day where I write. I think at first I might literally have to set a timer for half an hour and close any possible distractions, but I want it to become a habit. I can’t finish the damn book if I never write anything.

10) Get better organised

This is back, but I’m serious about this time. I have way too much time that I just spend aimlessly and then never have ‘time’ to do the things that I want to do which is bullshit. The time is there I’m just not utilising it properly. I have a shit ton of unused notebooks that I bought because they were pretty and that 2018 organiser of mine, they’re gonna get used and I’m gonna become a better organiser of the time I have that isn’t spent at work. Although even there I’m gonna get a clearer level of organisation in too.

11) Get my Peak score to 800

I talked about this at some point last year, I downloaded the Peak brain training app at the back end of 2016 and am now on a 376 day streak or something like that, but the score that I have has been hovering between 770-780 for months now and I want it to break 800, it means I have to take more care around the board for all the games and stuff, but that’s my aim

12) Meditate more

Headspace literally asks for 10 minutes out of your day and I used to give it to them, but then I stopped and kind of undid all the work that I had done with it. On the one hand it was because I was treating exercise as a kind of meditation but also I just wasn’t making it a priority, which I want to change. It’s just 10 minutes and it makes such a difference.

13) Save, save, save

I know this was also on the list last year and it was an epic fail but I’m serious about it this year. I’m gonna start keeping better track of all my expenses and try and not buy things that I really do not need. I want to be able to completely close my overdraft, ideally by summer time, but definitely by the end of the year.

14) Put more effort into blogging

I used to be relatively good with this. I would think about what I was doing more and I was good at sharing my posts and I had finally fallen into a habit of interacting with other blogs and then I just stopped all that. Posts came together really quickly and they were literally only shared once when it auto shares at posting. I want to get better at utilising Tweetdeck and reading other blogs and commenting on them and get back into the blogging community.

15) The Masters

Just as I was heavily considering actually making my way through the application, work got really hectic and left me feeling incredibly drained. On the one hand I think I used that as an excuse for not doing it this year, but on the other I knew deep within me that I wasn’t prepared to put the time into the application because I wasn’t ready for it. But I do still want to do it, so when the time comes later in the year I’m going to put the effort in and let the chips fall where they may.

And those are the 15 things that I want to work towards this year.

What about you, are there any things that you’re working towards or want to achieve this year?

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…Organised?

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I had a goal for the month. I wrote about it on here and bought a new diary and everything.

The goal was simple: get more organised.

Somehow this month ran away from me at cheetah’s pace and it’s now pretty the end of the month and I don’t really have anything to show for it.

I have opened the diary.

I have stared at the pretty pages and read the quotes that are at the top of the page for each week. I have marveled at it and all the possibilities that it holds. I have even written in it.

But for the most part I’ve written in it retrospectively. I’ve sat there on a Sunday and just thought about the week and what I did and then just written it all down to make the week look busy.

I was originally going to approach this a little bit like a bullet journal, and I still will (because yes, I am determined to make this a habit this time), and just make quick notes about tasks I need to do and other events that might be worth noting and all that jazz, but I guess because I am not in the habit of that it’s just not really happening.

I tried to carry my shiny new diary with me but I just kept forgetting about it so it didn’t really add anything to my day to day life. I didn’t refer to it at all throughout the day which means that carrying it around was kind of pointless. And so then I took it out and now I just sort of don’t refer to it as much.

In fact it has just sat on my living room table for the past week or so and I’ve not opened it. But I want to.

The difference between this instance and all the other countless attempts is the intention. I mean yes I kind of bought the diary because it’s very aesthetically pleasing, but it is also for the first time kind of holding me accountable to get my shit together.

It’s nowhere near as together as I would like it to be, but I feel like come the next check in I do for my goals this year that there may actually be something to report on regarding this particular one..watch this space.

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Conditioners

Conditioners

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I’ve quite liked going a bit more in depth with some of my goals for the year. I did it last week with my skin care and I’ve gone on a bit about my exercise routine (which may actually need updating…or I might do another version…or something. We’ll see) and also how that has really helped to change my mindset and made me feel better about myself.

I have also done a couple of posts about my hair, because I have become one of those people that just will not stop talking about my hair. That mainly comes from the fact that I borderline hated it for most of my teen life and into my early 20s and now I finally love my hair. And I am going to continue in that vein again today and talk a little bit about my new best friend.

Conditioner.

The bathroom is heaving with a lot of my hair products these days (which means I am on a hair product buying ban until I’ve run them all down…) and most of them include the word ‘conditioner’ in some way. I’m a little obsessed. I like to know that my hair will be well moisturised at all times and with whichever product I happen to grab in the morning.

So, this is a list of all the ones I own and what I think of them.

Starting with the actual conditioners, there is only one that reigns supreme in my life and that is:

American Cream: This product is my everything. It’s so thick and creamy and it has great slip. It makes detangling my hair a total dream as I rake my fingers through it to get rid of all the major knots after a week of doing very little of that. It’s also super hydrating which is really good and makes a nice base to the deep conditioning mask that I then put on once I have rinsed this out. I used to find the smell a tad overwhelming. I mean it was nice but it always felt like a bit too much, but over time I got kind of used to it and it’s been something like a year now and I quite like the reassuring aroma that comes with flipping the lid come wash day. I finished this beloved product of mine yesterday and so it will not be in my life again until I finish my other conditioner.

Superdrug Hydrate and Shine Conditioner with Coconut Water: Which is this one. I’m gonna be honest, I’ve never actually used this conditioner as part of my wash day process. I bought it to take with me to Greece, one just in case I did need to go through the whole wash day process while I was out there and two to take with me to the beach and rake through my hair once I got out of the sea. Because the sea is dehydrating as hell and my hair likes moisture. So I used it for that, and it was my hair’s saviour, for real. It was hydrating and kept my curls in check in all their salt water drenched glory. I’ll find out on Sunday how it actually works in my wash day routine, but I imagine it will be fine.

And those are the conditioners. Onto the deep conditioners, for which I have many. An alarming amount. It almost overwhelms me how much choice I have when it comes to putting one in my hair. Most of these have instructions that say to leave them on for 15-20 minutes. I promptly ignore all of those and just leave them on my hair for hours. I tend to just rake them in, tie my hair up in a bun and live my life for a bit. Sometimes I run errands, sometimes I go work out, sometimes I just watch some stuff on Netflix. My hair doesn’t seem to mind it.

Superdrug Hydrate and Shine Conditioning Mask with Coconut Water – I think I’ve used this once so far. It was fine from what I remember of it, but it’s never been one that I reach for come Sunday when it reaches that time. Honestly, there is no real reason for this, I prefer others to it. Next weekend I’m going to finally use the whole Superdrug Coconut Water range for the first time in conjunction with each other (I own the shampoo as well) which will be a first for me.

Shea Moisture Jamacian Castor Oil Grow and Restore Masque: I love this mask a lot. It’s really thick and again has good slip which makes detangling a total dream. The smell is a bit odd. Sometimes I like it and sometimes I feel like it is a bit medicinal and sometimes it smells just fine. Also my hair drinks this stuff up so much so I use a lot of it, but even though I use loads in one go, the tub lasts for quite a while. But to be honest that may be because it takes me a while to cycle back around to it in amongst the others that I use.

Olive Oil Deeply Repairative Hair Pak: I always forget how good this stuff is to my hair. The slip is insane. It is so good at detangling my hair as a result of that. I used it yesterday and left in my hair for around 4 hours and as I was detangling with a wide tooth comb my curls looked so good and revitalised. So many of these masks are really thick and I like that. This one is also really light. I put so much of this stuff in my hair and you wouldn’t even really know until I was combing it out and it all starts to collect on my ends. It also smells really good and is very, very hydrating.

As I Am Hydration Elation Intensive Conditioner: I have slowly fallen harder and harder in love with As I Am these past couple of months. This deep conditioner is everything. Again, it’s so thick and my hair just drinks it up. The tub doesn’t look that big, but it has a solid 6/7 uses in it and that’s taking into consideration that I go real hard with the application of any and all deep conditioners. It coats my curls so well and again also has really good slip. I love anything that makes detangling easier. Bonus for this one, it smells ah-mazing which is in and of itself enough reason to totally love it. I think this one is my current fave, but I only have one treatment left of it, so I’m reluctant to pick it up because when I do it will be gone until I run out of them altogether…

Hask Monoi Coconut Oil Nourishing Deep Conditioner: This came in a sachet that I used the day I got back from Greece, because my hair was crying out to be washed as it had been over a week by that point. I picked up a couple of Hask deep conditioner sachets before I left just to throw one in my suitcase just in case a wash day was required. It wasn’t, but I had them and so I decided to give one a try. Oh my gosh, this product was incredible. I do not know if you’re supposed to get more than one treatment out of this sachet or not, maybe if your hair isn’t as thick as mine you can. I could not and so I squeezed every last but of product out of the sachet and let my hair soak that shit up. Which is exactly what it did, my hair on that particular day loved this product. It smelled amazing, didn’t feel too heavy and left my hair feeling so hydrated after a week in the sun, sea and sand. It was also very hydrating. I have a charcoal (surprise, surprise) one of these also knocking about my house somewhere which I am looking forward to trying just to see what that does to my hair and whether I will have found another charcoal product to add to my obsession…

Once I have detangled, rinsed the deep conditioner out and wrap it up in a micro fibre towel for about 10 minutes I then apply a leave in conditioner and tie it back in some kind of bun situation (sometimes I plait it). I then come back to leave ins on days when I cannot be bothered to wear my hair loose and need to know that my hair is still being moisturised while it is tied away out of sight. I’ve also ended up with a lot of these, and I have repurchased one of them because it is my absolute fave and also quite a key component to one of my styling methods so being without it was not an option.

As I Am Leave In Conditioner: This is the repurchase in question. It is so moisturising and so delightfully good to my hair. I have finally got the ratios right with this and the second styling product that I use (which is currently the As I Am Doublebutter Cream) which gives me perfect results each and every single time now and makes my hair look so good. This product is also great for when I just can’t be bothered, although I’ve been running low so I had to look at other products for that, which is why the repurchase was required. It also smells incredible. Like oranges, which I happen to like the smell of but I know not everyone does. It’s citrusy but not too in your face with it. It’s my fave.

Shea Moisture Jamaican Castor Oil Leave In Conditioner: I haven’t been reaching for this one as much recently, although I do still really love it. I think it just has a bit too much slip for day to day wearing for me and that means that if I put too much in by accident (which is easy to do when you scoop it out of the tub) it collects in my ends in a really big way and you have to spend more time removing all the white product out of the ends. Again also the smell is a bit hit and miss, I’m currently in a phase where this particular tub smells really chemically and not like the peppermint-ish smell that it previously has had. I’ll probably reach for this a bit more when a couple other of my go-to’s run out.

Shea Moisture Shea Detangler: This is a more recent purchase just so that I could give it a try. I don’t really know how I feel about it. On the one hand I do think that it is very moisturising and it’s great to put through my hair after I’ve gone through the whole washing process (which I did yesterday). I don’t feel like it helps with detangling anymore than other products I use. Also if it goes on slightly dry hair then it takes a while to soak into my hair and I spend a lot more time raking it through to make sure there are no white streaks then I would like to. The smell is nice and neutral though which I like and it leaves my hair feeling soft. I’ve used it in conjunction with another styling product once and hated the results so I may have to give that another try on hair that isn’t going on 10 days old.

R&B Hair Moisturiser: I gotta be honest, I forgot that I had this product until the other day when I remembered suddenly that it existed. I haven’t used it in so long. It’s just not one that I reach for all that often. I don’t even really remembered how it reacted in my hair. I know it used to do great things when my hair was really awful, but what it would do now? Haven’t a clue. I used to just coat my ends with it after the gym to keep a bit of hydration in it but it never really went beyond that. I mean, at some point I am going to have to return to it, but I think I just fell a bit out of love with it because at one point it was the only thing that worked in my hair and now there are so many other products that do such great things and so it’s fallen a bit behind.

Garnier Ultimate Blends Coconut Milk Dry Hair Mask: This is a 3-in-1 product that i have only every used as a leave in. It’s super nourishing, smells really good and is really thick. It doesn’t have too much slip which I guess is a by-product of the fact that it can also just be used as an outright hair mask, but that isn’t too much of a problem and I tend to just rake it through and then tie my hair up. This is a product that is best used when hair is damp, veering towards wet, as opposed to damp, veering towards dry as it applies better. Or at least it does in the case of my hair.

Garnier Ultimate Blends Coconut Sleek Restorer Balm: I think I impulsive bought this and I’m pretty sure it’s supposed to be used as a hair mask but it has the same consistency as the other one and so I use it as a leave in. It’s not my fave, it dries in my hair a bit weird and makes my curls feel crunchy, which is probably the strongest indicator that I should really rinse that shit out instead of leave it in for 24 hours at a time. It also doesn’t smell all that nice, which is weird because it has both cocoa butter and coconut oil in it and independently they both smell lush. I’m not gonna rush to repurchase it and I’m wondering why I did so in the first place.

And those are all (I think) the conditioning products that I currently own and where I stand on them. I’m currently running them all down and then sticking to a two of each rule only (except for with actual conditioners because we all know which one rules the roost there). And I say two of each because I need options and to make sure that my hair doesn’t get complacent and start getting unruly.

And also, I’ve just written nearly 2,500 words about conditioners, so congrats to you if you made it this far!

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One Goal

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As I mentioned on Friday, the majority of this month will be a bit all over the place and some might be prompt based. This will be one of those and the prompt is: ‘Share one goal you want to achieve this month’

I actually do actively want to get better organised. I know this is a goal that I have set up for the year and as you can probably gather I have been doing terribly. Just truly awful. I am on some level just terrified of making lists and all that jazz. It’s just I have this irrational fear that once I put it down into words then I am going to freak myself out and shut down and therefore trying to become organised would become null and void.

So that is my goal for September.

To actually be able to say come that next check in that I have felt myself finally click with getting into a routine of being organised.

And because I am me and I am stationery fiend (seriously I have such a problem) I have also bought myself an 18 (it might be 17 month actually) month diary. It’s florally, it looks super pretty. It’s from my new fave place Ohh Deer which I have to pretend is not a site that exists otherwise it would just have all my money. And also because I am me, I’m waiting for it to arrive before I truly get my shit together and get physically organised so for the time being everything remains a mess.

My main reason for this being my goal is that what with the whole return to my blog and the clusterfuck it was before I took my extended break I am very aware that it would be sooooo easy for me to sort of fall off the wagon again and clobber together everything really last minute and I’m not naive enough to think that still won’t be the case, but if I can just manage my time a bit better then it shouldn’t feel like such a chore, which it did come about June.

I do not want to fall out of love with my blog again, and I don’t want to fall into a total state of apathy (which I am well at the risk of doing) and I want to feel like I am actually filling my time with doing things that are going to better me in some way. And currently I have a couple of things that I want to do and I need to manage my time with it all. And I need to be better organised for that.

I need to literally write it all down and make time slots or something. I think first I need to figure out what the hell being organised actually means to me. But it means that I need to start getting on board with lists and putting things down on paper so I can physically see them, rather than just hoping that my brain is going to remember it all.

So that’s my goal for the month of September, that hasn’t yet come into effect because I need the stationery to arrive first…

I’m speaking it into existence on a bigger level than I have before, I will report back to see if I’ve been successful in the endeavour.

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